Busy getting stronger...

        Tonight is the first time I have ever blogged. Let me start by giving you a few details about myself. I am a 25 year old mommy to 2 beautiful little girls. My oldest just turned 6 and is such a sweet, caring individual. My youngest turned 3 in January and is full of life and a sense of humor. I wouldn't take a thing in the world for my children, which is why I am doing what I am right now.
       About a month ago I finally got the strength to leave my husband. We have been married for 6 & 1/2 long hard years. My husband has what you call Narcissistic Personality Disorder. He is very self absorbed and exhausting. Everything that went wrong in our lives was always my fault. If we didn't have enough money then I shouldn't have payed all of the bills. If we got behind on bills then I should have just payed them all when we had the money. Nothing was ever good enough. He would blow up in rages without care of who he hurt or what he said. My daughters have heard about every cuss word there is out there. I have often wondered if he even liked my youngest daughter. He never made any attempts to spend time with her.
       Going up against him is like trying to break down a brick wall with your bare hands. If I ever tried talking things over with him he would stare straight ahead and block out whatever I was saying.
       It has taken a long time to come to the point that I am now. I can no longer live this way. He has tore me down to the point of getting physically ill from it. I never knew how he was going to act on his days off. Was it going to be a good day or bad? All it would take is one small comment or thing to go wrong and the day would be ruined for anyone around him. I will not allow my daughters self esteem to be ruined anymore. They are the innocent ones in this mess. It breaks my heart to know that they will become a statistic now. Their parents got a divorce. How sad for them to be labeled. My hope is that when they are the label will say "Their mom did the right thing."
      I am busy getting stronger! No matter how bad things were it still hurts. But I WILL get through this. And I WILL come out better in the end. I know that I am a beautiful woman who deserves real love. In time I will find that. Sometimes your blessing come through raindrops.