Showing his true colors...

What do your kids mean to you? I personally would lay down my life for my girls. I would do whatever it took to have them safe and happy. I would never let them go. But that is me. Their father on the other hand offered to sign away his parental rights yesterday because I don't trust him with them. There is a reason I don't trust him. He has always complained or pitched a fit when I have asked him to keep the girls in the past because it was "my day off!" Stupid jerk. He never in the past showed my youngest daughter much attention. She was more of an inconvenience than her sister. Really? You can play favorites with your kids? He has lost his temper and blew up in front of them so many times that it pains me to think that he may blow up when I am not there and I can't defend them. He has told them before "Your mom is a heartless B****H." All because I used too much hot water taking a shower one morning. Or the day that he knew I was going to get in the shower with the girls so he runs in the other bathroom and takes a shower leaving us with cold water and two shivering little girls. How worthless can one person be. So when he gets them on his days I am scared to death how they will be taken care of. A part of me hopes and prays that he does sign away his rights. They will be better without him. If he is planning on leaving for good it is better he does it now rather than later. GRRR!!!

My life these days.

So these days I am so happy with my life. I love my daughters! They are the most amazing little girls.
           My oldest said while looking at the sunset last night "It looks like God lives up there." How awesome for my 6 yr old to be so in tune spiritually! She is such a special child. I truly believe that God has plans for her. I have been saying since she was about 3 that she has a calling on her life. I feel so honored that He chose me to be her mother.
           My youngest is very special too, although I feel her calling may be in stand up comedy! She is hilarious! Sometimes I just sit back and watch her and laugh. I do feel tha I will have my hands unbelievably full when she is a teenager. Phew! It exhausts me thinking about it! But she is a ery sweet and adorable little 3 yr old now. Wouldn't change a thing about her spunky little tushy.
          And then there is the other person in my life...my soon to be ex husband. He has no clue what it is he is missing out on. He is out telling lies about himself to make everyone like him. How sad to think that no one will like you unless you have something to impress them with. Be who you are. Life is too short to lose out on what you have been blessed with. But I guess that is his choice. My girls will one day be those kids who never had a relationship with their dad. Oh well. More for this Mommy!

Getting excited...

Soon I will be back in my own house! I have new furniture and get to decide how I want to decorate things and where I want the furniture to go. I am looking forward to moving forward! Such a great feeling.